Thoughts About Lessons

So have the day off today and I am sitting here going stir crazy.  Football game on at 7:10 and I can't wait.  I am so in love with football right now.  Fantasy Week One is not the best.  I was not pleased with my line up and I benched Sanu and played Stills.  So a little frustrated. But it's only week one. So I am not a fan of being alone. I love people and hanging out.  Granted I prefer to hang out at a house rather than a bar or a club but I like to be with people.  But I am not that person to push my way into anyone's life. I am content being alone in my room and doing my thing.  Now I don't like being alone. But I have realized that I am not really ready to have a relationship.  I think in the past I have jumped in to relationships too fast in hope to get rid of the feeling of what I thought was loneliness; when actually it was contentment that I was lacking.  I am embracing the things that make me happy.  But I must always remember that my joy (which is different than happiness) lies in Christ.

 
With that being said I try to keep myself in check.  I understand not everyone is going to believe in the same things that I do and everyone sins different.  I am on a self mission to love people.  It has been brought to my attention by my very good friend Tim that I used to be a "holier than Thou bitch". Now those are my words and  he put it so much nicer.  He also brought this to my attention after I had realized it.  I went through and still continue to go through life lessons that keep me in check of this reality.  I have been through some shit.  Also at this point allow me to introduce my mouth. I am not exactly a "sailor" but I do use the f-word (amongst other words with equal value) and I am sorry but it is just who I am. Again everyone sins differently, so if you don't approve of my language, I understand. 

I am a very understanding person. I used to be very judgmental and thought everyone should be a certain way and held them to an accountability level that I didn't even hold myself to.  Enter the hypocritical Christian.  So I checked myself.  Shout out to my church at this point.  My church loves me.  They took me in and embraced my imperfections and loved me anyway.  They know I am who I am they never judge me and I am sure they shake their heads some times. You know like my mom does all the time.  But hey I'm me, I am who I am and I am 100% real. My point in this is you may not agree and you don't have to agree to disagree. Just understand that we need to be more loving and accepting, instead of condemning and judgmental.  Also my other point is pay attention to your line up because it could cost you major needed points. Happy Football Season All! Hockey is coming!!!!